SELKIE BORN
I had started this painting 24 hours before hanging my last solo show at Moosewood Restaurant in Ithaca, NY last summer (2021), but she never felt complete.
I placed her back on my easel in December 2021 and what a process! I only painted when night fell, and finally dragged myself back to the house at 11:30pm, 12:30am, 1:30am. That was the pattern. Painted in darkness.
She brought me into my mother’s womb. I was totally present from womb side as my parents worked on our Croft house in the North of Scotland, hand-sawing pine boards, building stone fire places with flagstone and lyme cement. Their story becoming part of my own, their emotions becoming part of my own, as my body was forming cell by cell. I also felt the sadness of being human, which has never been easy for me…. Perhaps this is why I relate to the Selkie stories so much- where seal and human unite in one shape-shifting body.
You can see the struggle in my progression in these pictures… I almost gave up until one dear friend said “keep going”.
And here she is, born and so alive! All of the emotions are present, all of the sadness and the hope… it is all there in her eyes. It is all there in mine.